Posted by octopusprime on September 15, 2003, at 0:45:51
In reply to Re: I feel like I want to die without him. octopus, posted by kara lynne on September 15, 2003, at 0:20:32
kara lynne, you are welcome
i posted to you because i have been lurking and i read your story.i have ended a relationship recently, and my heart breaks for me and for you and for everybody that has loved and lost.
i'm typing these things for me and for you - in giving you strength i can give me strength.
i'm going to tell you one story before bedtime. last night i felt so weak and i wanted comfort from my ex. i was going to drive by his house, see if he was there, if i could talk to him. i stopped myself and went to the beach, at night, instead.
i sat by the waters edge. i tossed rocks into the water, a rock for something i loved or liked about him, a rock for something i didn't like.
and then i prayed to whoever might be up there for an end to suffering, and for guidance in my journey. i thought of me, of my grandfather who lost his wife, of my cousins who lost their parents, of everyone that loved and lost. and i cried.
when i finally looked up, i saw a heron about six feet away from me. i love those birds. they're beautiful, with the long necks. i thought to myself "it's a sign. a sign that there are creatures of beauty and grace in this world. and that when i am ready for them to appear, they will come to me"
and i went home and i was peaceful.
oh i cried today and i hurt, but there is peace.
i hope this is of comfort to you. peace, eat something, sleep well.
ps don't call
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