Posted by kara lynne on September 15, 2003, at 0:20:32
In reply to Re: I feel like I want to die without him. » kara lynne, posted by octopusprime on September 14, 2003, at 23:29:21
Thank you for your beautiful post. We've never had any contact and I appreciate it so, that you would give me such support. I don't have words to tell you how much your words meant. I am a spiritual person at heart, but I am finding it so excruciatingly difficult to believe in any higher power these days. I don't understand this degree of relentless emotional pain. I just don't feel like I can endure it any more. I know there are people who suffer more than I do, I don't mean to sound self indulgent.
And you're right, I still am holding out hope, and wishing I could change him. Or that he would want to change. Or that I could change so that he would love me.
I am grieving again like I did when we first broke up. I guess that's what I don't understand--it feels like it's endless.
Thank you for telling me not to call him--I need to hear that, as you might have picked up.
Thank you so much. Oh how I wish to know those guides.
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