Posted by kara lynne on September 15, 2003, at 0:34:42
In reply to Re: I feel like I want to die without him. » kara lynne, posted by fallsfall on September 14, 2003, at 23:04:48
Thank you fallsfall. I do need to move on. It is something I have never learned to do well--let go and move on. I honestly don't think I've ever really let go of anything, as sick as that sounds, and with as much self awareness as I have--or at least tried to have.
Thank you for saying I am loveable. I will try to say the words even if I don't believe them. I don't understand why he wouldn't love me if I am loveable.
I didn't know that you ended the relationship with your old therapist that recently. You have done really well and it's an inspiration to me. I am going to look into other prospects and I will let you know on therapy babble.
I just sometimes wonder in the deepest, most broken part of my being, if I can ever really get well. There is something so old and cobwebby in there that does not believe it-- a shadow-self, standing frozen in some time warp, just waiting to die. And I really don't want to, fallsfall. I don't want to believe that, it's just coming up to rear its ugly head lately.
I am going to go eat the only paltry excuse for ice cream I have right now--orange sherbet.
I'm so glad you're here.
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