Posted by Dinah on December 15, 2006, at 17:35:04
In reply to Re: Thoughts on Suicide - Trigger » Daisym, posted by jammerlich on December 15, 2006, at 1:19:49
> "Living is a right, not an obligation."
I think my thoughts on this is that the choices we make in life ultimately do make living an obligation.
I chose to get married, have a son, form connections with others who care about me.
Even if (and there's certainly no guarantee) suicide would end my pain, it's not like it would disappear into the ether. It would disburse and maybe even grow, planted by me into each and every person who'd care if I live or die.
I'm absolutely terrified of living. But I'm also terrified of hurting others. It's what keeps me going some days. I carry those thoughts of escape through to past when I die, and to the consequences to others.
(Responsibility OCD as a positive thing, I guess.)
Besides, my husband and therapist would be soooo angry with me. I hate it when they're angry with me.
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