Posted by cubic_me on December 15, 2006, at 7:38:59
In reply to Re: Thoughts on Suicide - Trigger » Daisym, posted by jammerlich on December 15, 2006, at 1:19:49
DaisyM and Jammerlich,
I too don't know where to start with this topic, we think about it so much and seems so difficult to articulate.
I can completely understand the conflict between getting on with things and wanting to die. I don't know how we do it, and I don't know if you've experienced doctors not treating you as seriously because you're able to function. That's been a problem for me.
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> And do you know why I'm scared? Because then everyone would know how not together I am. Oh my god, they would *know*. Why do I need to keep up this illusion of strength? Even in my passing? I really just don't understand it.It's not just me...my main reason for staying alive is so that my parents (and most other people) don't find out about what's gone on with me.
The Christmas period is so difficult, I really hope things start to look up for us all when the stress of December is over. I try to be optomistic, but it doesn't always work.
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