Posted by wishingstar on January 2, 2007, at 22:17:27
In reply to Re: falling apart » wishingstar, posted by TherapyGirl on January 2, 2007, at 18:52:07
I know she cant read my mind.. and that's exactly why I'm so angry with myself. I'm not upset with her for not getting it, because I know I'm not providing anything for her to "get". But I am very upset with myself for not providing it. I'm hurting so bad and it's all my fault. Shes there and ready to care, if I'll just let her, but instead I just sit around and hurt and wish someone was hearing me. That;s the dumbest thing I've ever heard.
I've been thinking about this more this evening and I think I do need to write her a note. Thank you for the compliement on my writing therapygirl, although I dont feel elogent.. I feel all over the place and whiny. Oh well. As I mentioned in another reply, I think I may leave her a very brief voicemail saying that even thouhg it's not an emergency and she doesnt need to call back, I just wanted to tell her that I'm really not okay and I need her help. And then on Thurs there's no way I can back out of talking. I cant change my mind at the last second. I'm going to wait until the morning to decide, but I'll let you know if I do it.
Thanks for your thoughts. I appreciate it.
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