Posted by wishingstar on January 2, 2007, at 22:05:09
In reply to Re: falling apart » wishingstar, posted by Scentedgarden on January 2, 2007, at 19:22:04
Thanks for the comments.. please dont apologize for saying more things. They really do help. I like hearing anything you have to say.
It's funny, because I keep saying I know how I feel, and I do... but at the same time, I dont. I guess maybe the real problem is I dont know how to put it into coherent words outside my head. I think before I go to bed tonight I am going to write a note to nobody and try to say all the things I'm feeling. And maybe that'll help me get it together a little more. Part of me is scared to tell her... saying anything emotional is just SO far outside my entire life experiences up until this point. You're right, feelings were definitely not expressed as I was growing up. I dont know what I'm afraid of though. I trust her to handle it well...
I wanted to add also.. we dont really spend a lot of time talking about her or her family. I think that came out wrong. It's just passing comments here and there, maybe 2 min per session tops. I appreciate that she's that open with me. It makes her feel more like a real person.
I didnt take a bath, but I did have some hot chocolate and watch some tv. I'm going to bed soon. It's 11pm here.
Thanks for your thoughts.
poster:wishingstar
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