Posted by LiLi80 on February 21, 2002, at 12:31:54
In reply to Re: i miss having friends » LiLi80, posted by IsoM on February 20, 2002, at 19:01:04
I know what you mean about shallow. Those people were my other sorority sisters. THey are shallow and dont really have any conversations, they just pretend like they are interested in talking, but dont really listen. They are fn to hang out with tho. But they were never the friends that I thought would last past graduation. My roomates were the ones that I thought would be my friends for life. THey were the only ones I thought I would talk to after we graduated. But they turned on me. One roomate was pres of the Outing club and now the other one is pres of it. I cant go back to my old life. I had deep convos with them. I always talked about stuff that meant something. We were the ones that took five secs to get dressed, we were the ones who didnt care about appearances and talked behind the other sisters backs about their own ignorance and stupidity. I always knew that Christine (a roomate) lived in a bubble her entire life. She has a small town mentality, she is very innocent and is ignorant about alot of things. Jaci (another roomate) was also depressed and she says what happened to me was my own fault. Alyson (last roomate) tried to kill herself the weekend before I did, and the other girls kept saying that Alyson sided with them. That wasn't true. I talk to alyson sometimes online but she is now an aquantance because I dont know if I can trust. They were supposed to be my true friends. Not the kind of people that can memorize and recite my life back to me, but they understood me. They could read my mind practically (CHristine especially) I miss CHristine alot. Christine knew everything. She knows my idiosyncrises. Everyone knows I wear glasses. But there are only five people (my mom, my sister, a former roomie, exbf, and Christine) that know I have to clean them with certain tissues. It's stupid maybe but thats how I knew she was a true friend. She paid attention to the little things. But thats over now. They wont even look at me anymore.
LiLi
poster:LiLi80
thread:18498
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20020214/msgs/18637.html