Posted by LiLi80 on February 19, 2002, at 13:53:55
I miss having friends. I hate my life m,y friends have turned on me, my school kicked me out all because i tried to kill myself. they arnt friends, they ran away. My roomates didnt want to live with me, so the school made me move to another dorm. one old roomate cringes when she sees mne, i am being shunned, when they see me coming they literally trun their backs. Everyone ignores me. I was kicked out of my sorority because i was in a discrimination suit with my college about my depression, and the sisters didnt want the school to take it against the sorority so they voted me out. nice friends. i founded that stupid group. i was VP of the outing club and i was told i wasnt allowed to go to events because of my depression. The school said the club couldnt choose to exclude me, but whats the point if i get to go on events when i would be isolated when i went on them. I live in a dorm room by myself and life sucks. i dont have any friends anymore, i miss talking to people and having any type of conversation. i miss my old life. I feel like i have screwed up everything and i cant sdo anything to fix it. Ive managed to alienate everyone i know, and my exbf too, who i am still in love with, i hate my life, i keep thinking i must be a really horrible person to have screwed up this bad, i know i should think its their ignorance, but i am the one who is depressed, and they are all happy. I hear through the grapevine that everything is so much better with me gone and everyone is so much happier now. i hate that they get to be happy and i don't.
poster:LiLi80
thread:18498
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