Posted by m3 on February 19, 2002, at 19:39:33
In reply to Re: i miss having friends » LiLi80, posted by kid_A on February 19, 2002, at 16:00:30
LiLi, did your school try to help you at all? Is there even a counseling service available for students?
Your post reminded me of my own experience in college (I'm 24). I was in a different situation and didn't attempt suicide, but I honestly don't know what kept me from trying. I can elaborate about my story if you want, but anyway I know what you mean about being stuck in a dorm room by yourself. In my case I wasn't physically kicked out of the room, my roommates/former friends just stopped hanging out with me. And you know, I think it would have been better for me if I'd gotten out, because having them around, trying not to see how I felt, really made it worse. When I moved to a new room the next year was when I could finally start finding new things to do. I went to a lot of movies at the campus repertory theater (by myself), I took up roller hockey, I took cello lessons. It took a long time (several months) before I could say I had new friends, but at least I was getting out and was sort of able to enjoy myself.
I don't know if any of that sounds possible yet, but I just wanted to put it out there in case it could be reassuring. Please do keep posting--I really wish I had had PSB back then, I've found it so helpful this time around.
M3
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