Posted by Susan47 on May 27, 2005, at 23:08:57
In reply to I feel like doing a bad bad thing *trigger*, posted by Deneb on May 26, 2005, at 20:07:27
If you do what you think you might, and OD, and don't die, but you damage your memory or your cognitive function, you might have moments of lucidity afterwards in which you'll wish you had died. THe most precious gift you could have right now would be an appreciation of your present condition. If you lose your cognitive function, you'll be either one of the walking dead (Perhaps lying in a coma), with no memory or awareness of yourself, you might be able to walk or you might have to be wheeled everywhere; at mealtimes you might have to wear a big bib, being spoon-fed like a big ugly baby. There will be very little attractive about you. You may drool. Your brain may be triggered and you may have no control over your sudden fits of heartrending sobbing, wails of despair; you may bang your head endlessly on the table, on the walls; you may soil yourself several times a day, unaware what use a toilet is to you; others will have to bathe you, dress you, and change your diapers. Your brain may be triggered to sudden violence; you may have sudden, angry, superhuman strength, lashing out and grabbing, punching, hitting others. You may be put into the time-out room over and over again; you may become fascinated by a door, standing for long minutes at a time in the same spot, trying again and again to open that door, your brain recognizes it as a door but knows not what to do with that information. You will be a big ugly baby, without the grace of old age on your side.
What a waste not to know what you have right now. Whew.
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