Posted by Angel Girl on June 24, 2004, at 20:58:47
I don't know how much more of this I can take. My *supposed* best friend sent me an e-mail today, once again being fully negative towards me.
I think I'm destined to be alone in this world. Why does she continually say things that hurt me? I can never do right in her eyes and yet I can't let go. We used to have the best relationship and lately I feel her distancing herself from me more and more.
I have nobody. I want my *friendship* with her to be the way it used to but she won't even talk to me about anything unless it is to critisize me about something, true or not.
I'm just so sick and tired of all this. I really don't see any happiness in my future. I'm living my destiny. I'm living in Hell and nobody wants anything to do with me. I'm soooooo depressed. What else is new, it's the never-ending saga of my life.
What is so wrong with me that nobody wants to be my friend? I'm so tired of going through the same thing day in and day out. Nothing ever changes.
Why can't I change things back to the way they were before I got sick? I HATE MYSELF AND I HATE MY LIFE, so how could I *ever* expect anybody else to feel differently!!!
No reply is necessary. I'm getting used to being alone.
AG :(
poster:Angel Girl
thread:360012
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