Posted by Angel Girl on June 24, 2004, at 21:26:02
In reply to Re: Crying and nobody cares anymore » Angel Girl, posted by Dinah on June 24, 2004, at 21:15:41
> Fortunately, it's hard to run out of people.
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> There have been times when I felt like I had alienated everyone in the world. There have been times when I probably had alienated everyone on this board, for example. And then when my posts were answered with deafening silence, a voice spoke up to me kindly. Someone I didn't know yet.
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> There's been a lot of board turnover since you were last here. Why don't you tell the board all about yourself, and see if a voice of a friend you don't even know yet answers you.Dinah
There's not much to tell. Same old, same old. I'm BPII, VERY depressed, currently not on enough meds because I had to come off of one of my mood stabilizers abruptly 2 weeks ago.
I'm paranoid, I over analyze every word ever said/written to me, read totally different meanings in things than what is really there (so they say). I'm extremely impulsive which has only gotten me negative consequences. I try everybody's patience with my BP and they all eventually leave me.
Classic story. Same as everybody else. I just want to be loved but I am unlovable. They all say they won't leave me but where are they? They've all gone where others before them went.
I HATE myself, I HATE my life and the only reason I am alive is because of my 2 cats who need me. I wish I didn't have them so I could end it all.
I'm so tired of this poor excuse of a life that nobody wants to be bothered with.
Stop the ride, I want to get off!!!
AG
poster:Angel Girl
thread:360012
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