Posted by Temmie on August 30, 2003, at 12:13:54
Ack, it happened again. I met a man for a glass of wine last night, whom it turns out I'd actually crossed paths with some thirty-odd years earlier ... and too much "pre-date" talk over the phone about the music industry, and "The Seventies," etc., led to a false sense of camraderie -- and you know what? This guy didn't appeal to me at all.
I still haven't given up on Paul. I'm not tortured, torn, misguided, deluded, or anything -- I love and care for him -- but I'm also happy with things just as they are (with Paul some 1100 miles away, and both of us challenged by, and busy with serious tasks at hand).
I'm happy being alone.
I don't mean to portray myself as some kind of "American Beauty," but there is something about me people find appealing -- from Mr. Let-Me-Tell-You-What-I-Can-Do-For-You ... to others ... and I was uncomfortable -- after telling Rick that I was pulling my ad, because it no longer felt applicable -- I was uncomfortable, after that -- that my farewell hug wasn't enough and he planted a kiss on my lips.
Granted, it was a closed-mouth kiss -- but it was more than I wanted. And now he's emailed me not once, but twice ("If you ever change your mind," "If you'd like to reconsider," etc.)-- and dang it! -- this is the kind of attention that drove me into seclusion to begin with ....
I don't like feeling like a female dog in heat.
It's creepy.
I'm bummed. Fallsfall, I should enlist your editorial aid in drafting a reply to this guy.
I'm so looking forward to resuming the school year, continuing my work on myself, and living my life alone! If God wants to put someone in my path, He'll know where to find me (and whom to send).
Please let me know if any of you have had to deal with things like this, and how you brought them to a close.
Temmie
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