Posted by Zo on May 8, 2002, at 17:11:58
In reply to Re: I HATE MY LIFE!!! - Zo, posted by Angel Girl on May 8, 2002, at 11:16:40
Dear Angel,The program sounds good. And I wonder, don't any of the mood stabilizers help. . .stabilize? I've had such painful periods (years) of borderline mood swings, which turned out to be BPII. There seem to be a particular set of conditions in childhood that give rise to BPD. As far as the traits go, there is one hell of a lot for a woman to be angry about, and some therapists aren't comfortable with anger at all.
That said, I wonder if you really know quite how biting and sudden borderline anger is, from the other end. So that people are probably not be abandoning you, as a person, but just the behavior. Which is sad, I know, because you have normal needs for them to be there for you, but that is the nature of the disorder. Accepting that helps.
I did find that taking some satisfaction in *being* a friend, like you've described, lessened the pain.
James Masterson's "The Search For The Real Self" is the best discussion of BPD ever. It provided me with both comfort and direction.
Zo
poster:Zo
thread:23219
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20020430/msgs/23343.html