Posted by Angel Girl on May 8, 2002, at 0:12:20
In reply to Re: I HATE MY LIFE!!! » Angel Girl, posted by Zo on May 7, 2002, at 21:48:45
Zo
I'm much older than high school or college age so these 'friends' should be mature. My diagnosis is severe clinicial depression and borderline personality disorder. I'm taking Effexor XR 267.5mg in the morning and Effexor 37.5mg at lunch time and Xanax as required for extreme anxiety. I took ALOT of Xanax yesterday. I had to kill the pain. I couldn't even stand up. And that was much better than the hell my life normally is.
I have no intentions of trying to make new friends. What's the point??? I'll only alienate them as the people who already have known me for awhile, claim to be my 'friends' and profess to 'love' me. So if they can't deal with me, how on earth could somebody new??? I can't subject myself to yet another person who will toss me aside like yesterday's garbage. I have that enough already. I just want to be dead inside, to feel absolutely NOTHING!!!! That would be much better than all this hurt that has grabbed ahold of my heart now.
Angel Girl
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