Posted by Kristi on June 18, 2001, at 21:26:31
In reply to Re: Am I just too depressed--Anna Laura, posted by Roo on June 18, 2001, at 8:08:47
Hi again,
You really made a great point in this..... don't make any decisions until you are sure! Take care, Kristi
> Anna Laura--
>
> My doubts sometimes center around the feeling that
> maybe I'm not really having a good time. But then
> I'm constantly up in my head and analyzing things
> to death, which really isn't creating an atmosphere
> for having a good time. Laugher is pretty important
> to me (especially having depression and needing some
> comic relief from time to time), and me and my boyfriend
> have very different senses of humor. His is more
> intellectual, mine is more just plain goofy. Sometimes
> I feel guilty b/c I don't really think he's that funny.
> It's not that he dosen't have a sense of humor, it's
> just that I don't get it half the time and I'm very
> self conscious about the fact that I'm forcing myself
> to laugh.
> Also, what causes me to have doubts is my inability to
> just feel content in this relationship. The fact that
> doubts pop up so damn often really is hard on me. I just
> want to be able to relax and be in it, rather than
> continually question it.
> But then like someone else said, is it a chicken or
> the egg thing? Is my depression causing me to view
> everything in a negative light, or is the situation
> simply wrong for me and causing me to be depressed.
> Arugh. And, of course no one can know but me. I feel
> a little sheepish and guilty about laying my heart and
> my personal business out to total strangers...sometimes
> it's easier to talk about this stuff to total strangers
> than to the people that know me best. Plus they're
> probably sick of hearing it :-)
> He's a great guy. He's handsome, smart, sensitive,
> adores me to death, loves his parents, is willing to
> do anything for me...I've been with real bozos in the
> past so i'm unwilling to let this guy go (he's a very
> rare person I think) without really knowing for sure.
> My complaints are that I wish we laughed more...I wish
> sometimes that he weren't so focused on me and had more
> of a life outside of me....and I wish I felt more content
> with things as they are...
poster:Kristi
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