Posted by fleeting flutterby on February 13, 2009, at 12:11:12
In reply to Re: What if.......... » fleeting flutterby, posted by Dinah on February 12, 2009, at 17:37:32
> It doesn't sound like you were getting much from the therapy, so you're maybe better off? Lots of experience doesn't mean that much. He didn't have lots of experience with you.<<
------ Hey, yea! He didn't have lots of experience with ME! I like the way you word things-- it makes things look so much better on my part. thank you.
> Are you in a better situation now?
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> Or have I misunderstood his helpfulness?<<
----He did help me with some things, I must say that. Yes, I think I'm in a little bit better place(like, I finally understood that it was my mom and family at fault for the abuse and neglect and NOT me, as a child) Just that some other things felt so so unsafe for me in regards to sessions with him.I think it's that I grapple with myself, over the possibility of being a failure in this relationship. :o( .......so, I might be searching for soemthing that shows me that it wasn't ALL my fault, that this "failure" in therapy doesn't mean I'm a loser.......
I failed at being accepted by a mother(as an infant, toddler and child), by sisters and brothers.... our dad was there but didn't have interaction with us kids--- just feels so raw and fragile to think this could be another "failed relationship" of mine.....*sigh*....... blah...... it hurts in my soul......
flutterby-mandy
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