Posted by inimitable on December 12, 2006, at 7:40:39
In reply to Re: Suicide -mad at myself ** big trigger i think*, posted by inimitable on December 11, 2006, at 23:56:06
now i am thinking i would have been better off, if i killed myself. just a little bit, because i DO want to live, i DO, but now my group mates are calling me, most likely wondering where the heck i am, because the presentation i was supposed to give started at 8am. and i am not answering the phone. i feel soo guilty. i mean, i know my health should come first, but i feel guilty because it doesn't seem like i'm worthy of being called severly depressed, and so it's a sham, and it's not enough, my feeling of killing myself, it's not enough to leave my group in the lurch like that. i feel horrible, i want to vomit, or hurt myself. but i won't. i will wait, and tell my T how i feel, when i see him today.
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