Posted by Poet on October 11, 2004, at 15:28:54
In reply to Poet, how are you doing? (nm), posted by gardenergirl on October 11, 2004, at 11:26:11
Hi GG,
I'm still low. Too ashamed to call her. I know that the only one who feels that calling her is shameful is me. I am an expert in self shame and blame.
I don't know of anyone who would call her for me. My husband won't. He got me the name of a therapist that I *might like.* I liked my last therapist. I quit therapy because I can't do therapy, it wasn't because of anything she said or did. I can do therapy with pdoc, it isn't my therapist, it's that I can only trust so far and say so much. I would be stuck with anyone as the problem is with me.
I'm trying to get up the courage to call her when I think she's not there, though she would call me back and that would be awkward, too. I have her email address, but I don't know if she shares it with a business partner. But her partner is a therapist, too, it's not like she wouldn't get that it's private.
Thanks for caring. I really need my babble friends now. I wish I had babbled before I quit.I wish I wish I wish. I had the sense to realize that re-evaluating a decision is not shameful.
Poet
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