Posted by Deneb on October 18, 2009, at 14:48:35
In reply to Re: When life gets hard, I just feel like giving up, posted by Dinah on October 18, 2009, at 11:12:28
I hope I'll be able to integrate these parts of myself too. I never really thought about it.
I think I would be better able to concentrate on spectroscopy if I drop med chem. Med chem is way over my head and I just feel like a utter failure in that class.
I am not sure what I want in life. All I know is that most things are too difficult for me. My Mom just wants me to get my degree so I can find a government job. I guess that wouldn't be so bad. Government jobs are highly sought after here in Ottawa. I just have doubts that I will be able to get one and then when I don't I'd disappoint everyone.
My pdoc says learning from my mistakes is the most important thing to do. We can't undo the past. I really did not think I took more classes than I could handle. I really underestimated the amount of apathy I would have. Right now I am pretty sure I am taking more classes than I can handle next semester and I think I will drop some.
I agree that beating myself over this is not helpful. I need to move on, learn from my mistake and just do the best that I can at this point. I know I won't get an A now, but really I don't need to get an A. I just want to pass the class and it is still possible at this point as my midterm was worth 20% of my grade.
I really don't know if I am angry with my Mom or pdoc. I don't think I am, but sometimes I don't really know what my subconscious is thinking.
I have a better understanding of what works and what doesn't work now and I will definitely try to use this info to my advantage. For example, I am finding I definitely need a tutor for all of my classes. I also need to develop a schedule and stick with it.
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