Posted by TexasChic on July 9, 2008, at 22:29:53
In reply to {{{{{{{{{{TC}}}}}}}}} (nm) » TexasChic, posted by Larry Hoover on July 9, 2008, at 21:15:39
I'm feeling a lot of anger towards my friend/coworker who also works for my boss. I know its not rational, she has no obligation to do anything except what she chooses to. But I keep thinking, she is the one person who REALLY knows what our boss is like and how unbelievingly unreasonable she is. She's the one person who could tell it like it is and make a huge difference in what's happening to me (she's very well respected). But I just don't know if she is willing to jepordize (sp) her job for it.
And I'm mad because she never called me back that day, because I think my boss told her what was going on, and then she jut decided she didn't want to be involved.
Theh worst thing is, about a year ago another coworker was telling me she was going to go to the boss about RudeGirl, I told her I completely understand, but I just felt it would cause too many problems (because of my own my Supervisor) if I were to get involved. I mean, here this chick was asking for my help, and I wouldn't give it too her because I was too scared of rocking the boat. Ironically now that women is my biggest advocate. Makes me kind of feel like sh*t.
So now here I am feeling angry that my friend/coworker isn't standing up for me. I wrote her an email today saying, "Well, I told you when I'm feeling paranoid there always tends to be something to it. You laughed, but now we know differently. I saw my write up on the printer. Oh well, I talked to (my bosses boss) and feel like I at least have a fighting chance. But don't worry, its obvious you don't want to have anything to do with this, so I wont' mention it again." Now I feel like, why would I burn that bridge??? She's the only one who has witnessed it all!!! But I just felt like I had to tell her what I was feeling. I think I'm kind of plagued by this need to not beat around the bush and just say what I'm thinking. Oh well, we'll find out how it all turns out eventually I guess.
-T
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