Posted by Racer on March 21, 2006, at 0:02:08
In reply to Re: HAVE A SUICIDE PLAN *trigger* » Phillipa, posted by corafree on March 20, 2006, at 23:18:08
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> I don't understand what Linkadge is saying and I don't understand what to take. Maybe I shouldn't take this Abilify tonight. I didn't realize it was for bipolar and schizo. I'm not there yet .. but maybe if I take it, I will be.
>No, no, no, no, no -- the antipsychotics can be GREAT when the world is overwhelming you. I've never taken Abilify, but would if that's what my doctor suggested. Please don't let the name of the drug scare you away from it. And please don't think that it will make you what it's designed to treat.
Listen, I've been in a very similar situation to what you're describing. I was treated through the County, and you know what? It totally was like a Hoover vacuum... No question. And the T I was assigned there was appalling. It's not a nice situation to be in, and I can see how having to deal with that sort of a system can certainly add to your sense of helplessness and hopelessness.
But you know what?
I'm still here. And I'm doing a whole lot better. You, too, can survive sub-optimal treatment. You, too, can rise above the quality of treatment you're receiving.
The very first thing I did, which might be possible for you, too, was to search out another option for therapy. In our area, there are a couple of non-profit agencies that provide counseling services. Guess what? My share of cost for counseling through the Agency From [hot climate] was HIGHER than my fee at the local non-profit counseling agency. Was the counseling great? Not great, but certainly better. Once I started seeing a counselor there, things started to turn around for me. If you ask, someone here would probably offer to help you research your own area, to see if something similar is available to you.
Grief counseling would help, too, it sounds like.
I'm so sorry about your family issues. Especially your ex saying such a thing. That is absolutely unacceptable behavior on his part. I'm sorry you're having to deal with that.
Here's a reason to stick around a bit longer: you've got to get better DESPITE that County Care, and let the rest of the world know how utterly impossible they are.
I wish you well.
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