Posted by jerrympls on September 24, 2005, at 23:50:25
I haven't slept in my bed (or bedroom for that matter) for almost 2 years. INstead I fall asleep on my couch. Took me a while to figure out - but I think it's because I've associated my bedroom with being alone, insomnia, having to get up for work, isolation, etc.
I find that falling asleep with the TV on is somewhat comforting and keeps my thoughts (usually) off being depressed or worried about work, etc. However, I've had MANY MANY nights where I can't sleep on my couch either - meaning, I find that I'm still experiencing all the things I listed for my bedroom - sleeping on the couch.
Weird, because before this happened I always looked forward to getting in bed - I mean even while having depression. Before my couch sleeping, I found my bed comfortable, a place to escape to, cozy, etc. Now it's the exact opposite - and I almost have anxiety attacks if I try to sleep in my bedroom. Nothing terrible happened to me in my bedroom - minus depression and insomnia, nightmares, etc.
I don't know what to do? I've tried everything - to make my bedroom more comfortable, etc etc - but I can't break this. Anyone have any suggestions? I really need help.
Thanks
Jerry
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