Posted by Shy_Girl on May 13, 2005, at 15:53:25
I'm not sure I'm going to make it. I was kidding myself to think that a new med could magically help me. The reality is, my "condition" is purely of my own making and is hopeless. Going to the walk-in-clinic was a bust...no one knows what to do for me. There is nothing anyone can do for me. I guess I'll just have to take my chances...if I live, I live, if I don't, I just don't. I cannot predict the future, but if the pattern holds true, I'm afraid I won't be here much longer. "Go to the hospital if I feel suicidal"....ya right, like I'll have the guts and mindset to do that when I'm suicidal...geez, what do people think? I wished for something impossible...a pill to stop my suicidal urges, but none exists. Oh well, I hope I have some fun times before I die.
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:497413
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