Posted by verne on December 5, 2004, at 23:34:34
In reply to Re: almost ready to end life » Susan47, posted by jerrympls on December 5, 2004, at 22:08:11
Jerry,
I'm also isolated and find little reason to rise out of bed. I think it's great that you are working - I'm not.
I hope you can find a doctor who is sensitive to weight gain issues. I gained about 30 pounds on anti-depressants and only lost it through a low-carb diet.
You may want to consider a diet adjustment since 100lbs overweight has long-term consequences. Just cutting out starch and sugar made a huge difference with me. I went from 230 to 205lbs in no time. I have friends who are in the 300+ range and they all overdo carbs and sugar.
PLease don't make any drastic decisions based on where you are at now. When I was in my 20's I lived in constant emotional pain and was in and out of the hospital with self-inflicted injuries. They were just starting to take borderline personality disorder seriously.
The acute pain diminished with each decade. I think the body chemistry - the brain chemistry- changes as we grow older. In my case, the self-injury stopped in my 30's and suicidal ideation in my 40's. And this wasn't because I became a success in life. I found more peace than ever as a failure in my 40's.
So hang in there.
verne
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