Posted by littlep24 on June 22, 2004, at 8:17:03
In reply to Re: Love or in love?, posted by tampagirl70 on June 22, 2004, at 7:49:07
For me losing the love has to do with each others interactions everyday. I have numerous post regarding this subject. It is a really big source of frustration for me that is why I keep writing because if I don't get it out here I will explode. No matter how much I explain to my husband how I feel due to the depression or how much he reads or how much he talks to a therapist about it he doesn't understand. His is tired of therapist telling him this is her she is not going to change and believes I need to change because no one could have all the issues I do. His lack of understanding means that he thinks I am faking my depression (I wish). If you can accomplish a task one day and not the next well then you are faking. If I can go on a play date and be social but the next day we go to a party and do not feel comfortable there, he thinks it is socal phobia ok due to my negative feelings about myself which is depression. I am so confused about it all all I want to do is sleep so I don't have to deal with it, which I know is wrong but when you spend 90% of the little energy you have trying to make him understand you have none left. I am having a difficult time getting him to concentrate less on me so that I want feel so much pressure, it is that he want's to fix me mentality. I keep trying to tell myself there is nothing to fix, however, when you live with someone who doesn't understand you it makes you feel crazy and makes you become more depressed, which he really doesn't understand because he feels like he is trying to help. I am trying soooo hard to keep the love but I just don't feel it and it is really scary. When I explain that I don't feel the love of course he blames me.
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