Posted by Jai on November 22, 2003, at 17:51:57
In reply to Re: thank you, Lar » Jai, posted by Larry Hoover on November 22, 2003, at 13:57:48
> > You definitely had much too much on your plate.
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> Do you think?Well yes I do.
Sometimes these life experiences precipitate a breakdown sometimes they accompany a breakdown that was coming anyway.
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> I think the distinction is moot.I think the end result is the same but the getting there is different.
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> I have 100% incidence in my male bloodline, both mood disorder and substance abuse.
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At what age is the onset? Or did it appear all your life?
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There is one exception. There are those who say they will speak with brutal honesty, but they get off on the brutality, not the honesty.
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That sounds like abuse, not honesty. It seems like that is a way of shoving people away and not letting them in close.
> I think it's a primal fear. That it can strike anyone.Well my family is in mortal fear of Bipolar striking after 30 years old.
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Sometimes I wished I had become a doctor....
> It's never too late.what a sweet sentiment. My mind is too old to go through the rigors of med school.
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> > My mother was not kind or considerate within her life & illnesses.
My mom, the same. Birds of a feather?
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Your mom was mentally abusive? Was she mentally ill? How did you move through this?> It feels like my breakdown was literally that. Something seems permanently altered. I am a different man than I was before. I simply do not have the capacity or endurance that I once had. Nothing at all like it, in fact.
> Current diagnoses include: treatment-resistant major depression, dysthymia (so-called double depression), chronic fatigue syndrome, acute PTSD, chronic PTSD,
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Did you try EMDR?
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chronic insomnia, irritable bowel syndrome. I don't quite meet the criteria for fibromyalgia, but my doctor calls it that anyway. Others, too.
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Have you tried the following for your intestines:
1. Garden of life Primal Defense?
2. Renew Life Oil Smart?
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What happens to you with Valerian?
stimulated?
> I have stabilized my mood, without medication, via nutritional supplements.
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what works? What do you take per day?I manage the others with conceptualizations
such as a daily assessment of my energy budget, and similar. I'm doing much better than I was, but I am not yet well. The trend is upwards, but it is two steps forward, one step back.
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Your communications have a lot of energy behind them. Kindness takes energy.
I hope to hear from you.
Jai
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