Posted by kara lynne on September 23, 2003, at 0:16:39
In reply to Re: Job fell through, posted by octopusprime on September 22, 2003, at 22:25:56
Thanks o.p.,
But if you knew my mother...Thanks for the offer and the support. I hadn't realized how much I was fantasizing about having a life until I spoke to the woman today who took it back in a phone call. Of course I have to keep trying, but this would have been a great opportunity. And she was kind of leading me on and told me to confirm with her today about going somewhere with her tomorrow, and that 'now would be the time to make a place for me' if it was going to happen. But today she said she had to cancel, and that she had talked to her husband who dissuaded her from taking me on board as I'm just starting and yadda yadda. And the reason why I ever talked to her in the first place was because my therapist said she takes people who are just starting, and he called her for me and tried to connect us.
It's one of those areas where I couldn't even imagine what success would feel like--ever really, until last week after I met with her for the first time. And it began to seep in that maybe I could actually do something with myself. Tonight I'm back on the couch heavy headed adjusting to meds and trying not to plummet.
It would have been too easy. I guess I have to work at it a little more. But it was kind of like I was able to move out of the paralysis for one fleeting moment--this is stuff that just doesn't come easy for me. In fact it is the hardest stuff for me to do.
Thanks again. How're you doing? Did your ex call again?
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