Posted by KimberlyDi on July 29, 2003, at 13:43:13
In reply to I felt fabulous earlier...., posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
Dinah,
Is bi-polar the one with the manic ups & severe downs? Every once in a while I feel like I have mini-bi-polar experience. I'll be ridiculously happy with life and anyone, laughing & playful. Then reality comes crashing in, and I'm disillusioned and angry or depressed. I've come to recognize the manic ups, and try to control them. I have no way to measure if that has decreased the downs. Maybe I should just enjoy the ups, and pay the price later, like you mentioned.Beyond that, I feel like I have symptoms of several disorders, like ADHD & OCD, without any being *full blown*, except alcoholism. It's like my mind is an equal opportunity employer for part-time disorders. I take Effexor, that helps with my anxiety and stress at work, yet it seems to agitate the ADHD & OCD symptoms. <sigh> I never expected much from life, but it would be nice to not have to struggle so much to be normal.
Good Luck!
KDi in Texas> Terrific therapy session, and more importantly, a really nice time with my son this evening.
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> I was playful and happy.
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> So here I am in the wee early hours again for the first time in a long time, waiting for the Klonopin to set in. Convinced of my basic wretchedness and evil as a human being. Mostly OCD thoughts, I know. And I know how to separate the wheat of the thoughts from the chaff. I've gotten pretty good at the OCD stuff.
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> But is there a baseline for happy? Is the OCD and anxiety attack in the middle of the night an equalizer for being so happy earlier? Or maybe it's just because I'm ridiculously annoying when happy, and my husband's reaction reminded me of that, and set up the train of thought that led to the OCD attack.
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> I dunno. But I'd like to be giddy happy for once without having to pay for it later.
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> Stomp, stomp, stomp. (I'm stomping my less than dainty feet.)
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> Rant over.
poster:KimberlyDi
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