Posted by BarbaraCat on July 29, 2002, at 11:48:03
In reply to Re: Hey, we're neighbors! » BarbaraCat, posted by Ron Hill on July 29, 2002, at 1:06:45
Ah, Ron, your prayers mean so much to me and my husband. I felt those sweet prayers come winging over the BitterRoot Mountains and into my heart yesterday. It's true, being unemployed for so long takes its toll on both of us. It's difficult not to feel on constant state of alarm, not healthy for a bipolar fibromyalgic on disability (with no more money coming in) trying to 'heal'. Our surrounding land, a beautiful sanctuary, is being periodically bulldozed for development; this is the worst, it's heartbreaking, frustrating and nerve wracking, and is an unneeded open-wound demonstation of the greed and violence of the human race - definitely no way to heal. I don't care what anyone says, winning the lottery would solve ALL my problems!
But there's something here to learn, some hidden gift, I keep telling myself. Praying is the key. In my good moments I understand that all these challenges and heartbreaks serve to open us to compassion, what better way can there be? I hold all of us here on this board in my heart and pray for all of our highest good. Sometimes I don't know who I'm praying to - it's definitely not the old guy in a beard of my childhood - but a loving gentle presence is always there, listening, and I don't feel so alone.
On a lighter note, yes I do think about neighbors being babblers. I don't mention this board to my friends in case they start visiting it. They'd recognize me immediately. It would be like reading someone's journal. I certainly think this world needs alot more honesty and less secrecy, but gee, not sure they're ready for this kind of disclosure. But what the heck, I'm open about this stuff anyway, and anyone who has a problem with it is of little concern to me. I don't have oodles of friends, but my dear close friends are like soul buddies and we share what's in our hearts.
I love your state, Idaho. Oregon, Washington, Idaho, ahhhhh... We ought to form our own union - and NO MORE stinkin' development! You take care, Ron. - BarbaraCat
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> I live in Boise, Idaho so we're neighbors, well sorta. As an aside, wouldn't it be a hoot if, after years of posting to this board and communicating regularly with a particular screen name, you found out that the fellow poster lived just down the street?
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> On a more serious note Barb, I'll try to remember to lift up you and your family before the Lord during my prayer time tomorrow morning. It's hard on the male ego to be without work and the financial worries can certainly make your bipolar symptoms worse. Do you still have children (other than your kitties) at home? I'll pray, and if I can help, let me know.
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> -- Ron
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