Posted by Zo on February 22, 2002, at 2:00:02
In reply to Errant lipstick and mis-matched pyjamas, posted by trouble on February 20, 2002, at 22:37:07
> Haven't slept, too many stars to count.
> The bad side has been yelling at my cats. Letting their water bowls go stale. I never yell at them, but the last few days it's been harsh and immediate. They crouch behind the furniture and stare out at me in perplexed betrayal.
> But that's a step-up from my normal routine, which is to put out that intimidating vibe, "Don't you even look like you're going to approach me", and they don't. They write memos.
>I even admitted I had lied to her, and that we both knew it, and thank you for holding eye contact w/me while we
> Nobody likes me.
> But they wish they could.
>I walked around getting chills up my neck and trying not to see a thousand paper flyers scattered on the floor and when I picked one up it gave the date of the event as the night before
> "What? Do you think you're some kind of a rock star?"
> "NO, actually, rock stars think they're me."
> Lester Bangs was my hero, and still is to a point. But one day he just didn't wake up, and I later learned that listeners were placing bets on how I myself, was going to die, not waking up being the consensus.
> Towards the end it was all memos. I'd get one stating that the music meeting would be Monday at noon, and when I showed up discovered that the meeting had actually been at nine am, everyone else received that memo, and I received the fake one. This is the story of my life.
>>They all 3 said my prognosis is guarded, and I'm encouraged by that, all I have to do now is find out how mental patients turn the tide against them and copy their behavior.
>>
> But I made a departure today, writing that note, shaky hand forming jagged, irregular script, ink flowing from pen tip like a current of energy that passes from one to another and the next to the next, growing smooth and steady with each new post.
>Talk about getting chills up your neck. . .Whoa!
Dazzled,
Zo
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