Posted by IsoM on February 20, 2002, at 23:51:21
In reply to Errant lipstick and mis-matched pyjamas, posted by trouble on February 20, 2002, at 22:37:07
Trouble, our worlds are very different. I think differently than you do & probably have diff interest from you. But your writings are poignant - not in the usual way I mean, but the lost & troubled soul I perceive in your writings. There's such a deep ache there, it's tangible.
I don't know how to phrase all this - I'm not very eloquent like you & others. It's very easy to explain myself when I'm talking about something that's quanitative but something that can't be easily measured like emotions are difficult for me to describe. Any efforts I put into trying to express them always sound so trite to me. Whenever I've read what I've written before, I've ripped it up. It never comes out the way I feel it.
And what I'm trying to say now - I can't say. I don't even know what I want to say except it's full to the brim in me & wants saying. Your pain, your life - is there no one who knows you & accepts you unconditionally? How could they not? Your name says it all, I guess - trouble. But it's thorns with the roses & you are beautifulto me like a rose. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable in your own skin. I don't want you to feel like you aren't entitled to be here like others.
I hate roses - they're beautiful & perfumed but they need too much tending - they get a lot of fungal diseases & insects. And the thorns! I've always got torn & ripped skin when I'm finished tending them but still I buy them & plant them. They're so incredible, they give such beauty & fragrance back, I can't NOT have them. Can't others see that too? What can I say that would make some difference to you & help? Can I?
poster:IsoM
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