Posted by cmcdougall on December 26, 2001, at 15:43:55
In reply to Re: ARGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!, posted by Sourceror on December 26, 2001, at 14:14:31
Dear Sourceror,
> Today has not started out well. I was turned down for the day program because I wasn't totally incapacitated....
Did you tell them you were suicidal? I have never heard of someone who was suicidal being turned away from a program.
>The second is a cognative therapy group which might help.
I love cognitive therapy - really gets to the core of your feelings.
>The only problem I have is that I can't drive and the hospital is a good 30 miles away so getting a ride will be a problem.
Why can't you drive? What about a bus? Your parents know you need this, so why can't they drive you?
>regular weekly or biweekly 15 min sessions with the social worker and not having my next pdoc appt til April.
Please, please tell the social worker that you have been contemplating suicide. You are owed a chance to get well and you need help from the system - don't minimize your symptoms or be ashamed to admit that you're suicidal. Your posts sound very serious and scary - if you are not considered incapacitated by your depression, I don't know who is. Try, try again.
Good luck,
Carly
I feel I will loose control if things keep up the way they are. I made it through the holidays and that was my goal. What is next? Nothing I can think of. I wouldn't be surprised if something doesn't happen by the middle of Jan. I have been teetering on the edge here even when I have had a goal and almost didn't make it this far. I just wonder if maybe it's my time to cash in the ticket. No I have to stop thinking like that and try to hold on. But it gets so hard when no one is really depending on you for anything. It seems like the perfect time. I started a note once maybe I should update it. That usually gets me crying and thinking again about if it is worth it. I just feel like I am crouched up in a little corner and knowing that all I have to do is get up and move then I won't be in the corner anymore but yet I can't even will myself to move. I just don't know what to do. I want the help but to get the help it seems too difficult. I can't figure out how to get the help I need in the system I am using right now. I wish I had insurance and could go to a normal T and pdoc then I could know what was going on. I am stuck in this pathetic Vetrans Hospital system and anytime the govt gets their hands on anything it goes to hell and a handbag. Well I guess I will trudge on another day. Thanks for listening.
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> L8R,
> The Sourceror
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