Posted by Sourceror on December 25, 2001, at 21:04:36
In reply to Re: ARGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! » Sourceror, posted by shellir on December 24, 2001, at 21:33:11
Today was a wreck because my parents wanted me to get up and go out with them and all I could do was sleep because I was all doped up on the meds. I want to do it again today but I know that I have to get up early to go in and see the social worker about if the day program will be good for me again. I can see it now going in there and exposing my nasty little OD habbit right in there face. They would surely want to lock me up then. I wish I could figure out these urdges and what is causing them so that I might counter act them. I feel so comforted knowing that I have enough meds to accomplish anything I want to. I need to buy a little more benedril though since I have induldged a little too much here the past few days after that I have a mail order refill of my daily meds and once again I am all set. I seem to have a problem with impulse control I think, maybe that is why I OD. Humf, got me. I guess I am just a sick bastard lab rat that they will continue to try to figure out till they get it right or I end up dead. Well enough for todays drama, tomorrow we have the appointment and christmas with my family since we didn't do it today due to family scheduling conflicts. Take care all.
L8R,
The Sourceror
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