Posted by Sourceror on December 23, 2001, at 19:32:00
I am going outta my friggin mind here. I have been stuck at home all day and every attempt I have made to track any of my friends down to help me get out have been futal. I searched the babble open and no one was there either. I am so frustrated and now all I can do is try to type through it. I am at wits end and all that I keep thinking to is ODing on something, not so much to kill myself but it is something that seems to bring relief. I think my ODing is alot like a cutter. I use it as a release and only ocassionaly as a desire for suicide. I am so feeling isolated and alone right now. I have my parents here but I don't feel like I can talk to them. I just want this pain to stop and I feel like I am running out of options today. I just want to anestisize myself and try again tomorrow. I have to work all day tomorrow so maybe things will be better then (helps keep mind off of problems usually).
Well I think I have gone on long enough for today I will yield the floor to someone elso for now.L8R,
The Sourceror
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thread:15882
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