Posted by akc on December 6, 2001, at 11:30:14
In reply to Re: a thought » Katey, posted by Dinah on December 6, 2001, at 11:01:43
>It's hard to explain, my cutting is controlled but I am out of control. And I doubt there is a cutter out there who has never lost control of how hard to push or when to stop.
Katey,
I'm with Dinah on this -- when I talked about my cutting, for me it is about control -- I'm in control of the act as I do it, but I am beyond control once I have made the decision to cut. The energy that several people have put forth this week to keep me safe has been incredible -- but I have spiraled to the point of no return. And while I may be "proud" in how neatly and pain free I did my cutting, I did end up in an ER getting several stiches. There is nothing pretty about what happened last night -- and in reality nothing about control whatsoever.
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