Posted by Dinah on December 6, 2001, at 11:01:43
In reply to a thought, posted by Katey on December 5, 2001, at 19:22:06
> ive come to the conclusion that cutters are more in control than people like me who scratch. they know exactly how their doing it, just how hard to push, when to stop, and how to bandage. the only time that i scratch is when i lose control and everything spirals down. i dont break skin, i do it for the burning sensations and the 'art' of the marks left until they fade. i think it would be healthier, maybe not safer, but probably healthier to be a cutter.
Katey,
Please don't romanticize cutting. Cutters are as out of control as anyone, maybe even more so. Cutting is the last grasp at control. It takes a lot more control and is a lot healthier to know how to stop at scratching. I do that sometimes. It works about as well as cutting and has less consequences. When I cut I'm way more out of control than when I scratch. It's hard to explain, my cutting is controlled but I am out of control. And I doubt there is a cutter out there who has never lost control of how hard to push or when to stop.
By the way, my latest battle with urges to cut started with the trigger of the ER show depicting a cutter. It is about as far out of control as you can get to be triggered to spend hours and days obsessing about cutting over a short scene in a TV show.
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