Posted by sar on August 13, 2001, at 14:11:39
In reply to Re: sar is okay - » shelliR, posted by Wendy B. on August 11, 2001, at 7:51:35
hello ms wendy,
i know it was a sign and that i was lucky as hell not to have hurt anyone else. now i just get to get sued and/or face jail time/ probation!
i did pass it off as a joke because well because i don't know why. i can't ride the bike drunk because i'm simply not co-ordinated enough to drink and bike at the same time. drinking and driving is much easier. oh, this is just horrible. i'm saying awful things, i know. i've had a few sober nights since the accident, thank god i work 'til midnight sometimes and come home exhausted.
i'm going to try nicorette and the patch next week. i have become concerned about my teeth and skin. been smoking from age 15, no good.
progression. i wash my clothes now. i wear deodorant. sometimes even some makeup. i buy cute clothes. i chew gum. i socialize...and so as the sadness drops away, i hope that the drinking will too. (i know it has nothing to do with hope, it has to do with DOING but i'm a taoist you see, when i officially tried to give up drinking in april i started drinking everyday just because i was no longer "allowed" to)...i have crushes now, i don't feel hollow anymore...i do like my drink very much but it's harder to get to the store now, or a remote location like a large grocery store that i can steal from at 2 am, so the drinking drops by default.
i don't think i'd ever tell you off, wendy, unless yr planning to get all rowdy on me...?! :)
you up for a catfight or somethin?love
sar
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