Posted by Kingfish on August 14, 2001, at 11:06:08
In reply to Re: Living in a city if possible » Kingfish, posted by sar on August 14, 2001, at 10:35:24
Oh, I drink, Sar. I've been drinking since 16. Well, I think I took my first drink at 14, a little wine snuck out of the firdge. So don't ever think I "have it together with drinking" or anything.
I've used it to help me with moods all along. And right now, even though meds are helping some, I still drink. But I'm working on it. I actually am exploring smoking again as an alternative. Crazy I know. It was the one thing I never got addicted to, though, and I'm wondering if I smoke at bars when out with friends, and when outside at night pondering things sometimes, if it will curb the desire to drink. Just a thought. Seemed to work last night. But I can still taste it. ;0
I don't think I can, or want to, stop drinking. I want to drink moderately. I have at times, and at times, I haven't drunk at all. So I hope to get to that point. It seems I can make it pretty well, but then have to have a night a week or so, where I drink a lot on the average. I'm sure this makes me an alchy by AA standards. I'm just trying to find a balance for me. But I'm really careful not to drink and drive. Not nagging! ;)
I guess my city comment was that in NYC, you don't drive - you take public transportation or a cab everywhere. That said, I felt like I could drink anytime I wanted to. That gave me a real freedom of sorts, because like you, if I deny myself something, I'll just do it all the more. So I would drink more often, but far less. And noticed that's how others were as well. (Some others).
I plan on going back to the City asap. I love it! Trying to get it together so we can have a leetle, teeny apartment there, and our house in Woodstock. We'll see.
Take care. Keep writing. It's nice to hear from you.
- K.
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