Posted by AKC on August 4, 2001, at 22:47:17
In reply to Re: The flu? » susan C, posted by AKC on August 4, 2001, at 22:04:06
Well, I just woke my therapist up and cried on her shoulder -- she is certain its my meds -- the latest adjustments were problable not called for -- but as I have pointed out again and again and again, my pdoc is on vacation until the 6th. I'll call her fill-in tomorrow and tell him what I think I should do -- back down on the topamax and up the effexor. I should just do it, but I told my therapist I would call. She is the greatest -- she let me cry and helped me think through what I am experiencing and pointed out how well I have been doing of late -- and the fact that over the past two weeks the anxiety has been building and that we have made these latest adjustments to the meds and that it is probably med related and that I am not depressed, so suicide usually isn't called for in these circumstances, so I am okay. That is important for me to see -- even when I am alone like now -- I am okay. She cares for me a lot -- and is willing to help me so much. I wonder why -- I know it is her job, but still I wonder. I've had a lot of problems over the two years I have seen her. She has always been there for me. I'm really lucky.
I've got to get to sleep. I haven't had to take any trazadone for awhile, but I think tonight it is called for. If I can keep it down -- my stomach finally flipped-flopped.
Again, I apologize for all the rambling tonight. I just really need someone here for me -- I'm just so alone tonight.
AKC
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