Posted by susan C on August 4, 2001, at 21:20:47
In reply to Re: Repairing the Damage, posted by Willow on August 4, 2001, at 20:42:05
This has been a tough last four weeks for me, too, Willow. pdoc said, when I asked how do I make it until I come see you? 'take the beating' I had to hear it. Like you AKC, I know I will come out of it, I know the meds will work, I hold on to my confidence in my medical care. Even when my brain doesn't. I remember the steps going into depression are the same as coming out. I guess this may not sound very encouraging, but we don't have an encouraging illness. I just know AKC you have helped me, I hope I can return the favor. I am clapping for you, Tinkerbell.
Your electronic friend.> > And then tonight -- while not depressed, I'm in the mood -- so my brain, so pre-wired for destruction is going down that path - self-destructive thoughts are bombarding me left and right. I'm clear-headed enough to know them for what they are. But I have no one to share them with. No one to help me through this. I am so frigging alone. I am going nuts. I so want to go in the hospital at times like this just to not be alone. But they would mess with my meds -- and that can't be allowed -- we are getting close, I believe that. So I have to tough it out -- but I can't keep toughing it out. It is too tiring.
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> AKC
> When I feel similar to what you describe it usually happens after a stressful event. I think it is just plain anxiety. I don't have a cure, but knowing it will pass helps me.
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> Sorry I can't be much more help! Know that I'm here even if I'm not posting, ramble on if it helps. (Sorta like a good cry!) Your post "A friend pulls away" I could relate to in a different perspective. (I guess I was just being too needy.)
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> A month ago I went through a really rough time and survived. I'm leading to a downer mode, but suspect that you could use some cheering so off with me into my corner.
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> Chin up ...
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