Posted by wishingstar on December 3, 2008, at 20:31:47
In reply to Relationship with your T in your head?, posted by FindingMyDesire on December 3, 2008, at 0:35:11
I definitely have a version of my T in my head all the time. With my past T, the one I just terminated with recently, most of the "conversation" in my head consisted of me picturing her telling me to do (or not do) something in particular and me recognizing what she'd say but cursing at her to shut up etc. I never really felt like she quite "got" me, so while I'm sure some of her advice was very good, I never really listened fully because I was so frustrated with other things. With my current/new T (who isnt really new, seen her on and off for years)... it's a bit different. It's harder for me to imagine what she'd say so I dont typically have conversations with her in my head, but I am able to hold on to her presence much more than other Ts I've had. For instance, if I have to do something very difficult or anxiety-producing, I can picture T in my head and remind myself that she thinks I can do it. She calls that "borrowing strength"... it works for me. I dont have any wonderful insights, but as others have said, I do think the process of internalizing our Ts is important. What it really is is internalizing the "lessons" of therapy through that person (the therapist) I think. It's all just complicated.. I wish I knew.
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