Posted by antigua on August 19, 2006, at 11:07:47
In reply to Re: Confused and update on hypnotist, posted by Estella on August 18, 2006, at 14:54:23
I can only use one of my own dreams as an example.
I dreamt that my pdoc put me in the hospital involuntarily and there were whisperings among the staff that he was doing some unethical things w/my treatment--he even gave me some vodka (I don't drink anymore and it has been a big problem for me).
Somehow or other I escape and head for my T. I need her to help me understand what happened in the hospital as I have some amnesia about it, and I'm worried that I might have done something bad (like waking up after the morning of heavy drinking and discovering I've done some really stupid things).
I go to my Ts house but since I just showed up, etc., she is busy with all the activity at her own house. She talks to me every now and then, but obviously she is busy dealing with her own daughter and friends.
At this point, I discover that yes, I have done something terribly wrong during my amnesia and I'm just so overwhelmed with disgust and hate for myself (how could I have done this again, I hate myself for drinking, etc., etc.)
So here's the interpretation I worked out w/my T. The pdoc is my new pdoc and my father combined, doing bad things to me (my father gave me alcohol when I was a child). It's all very secretive.
I go to my T, who stands for my mother and she is too busy to help me, much like my own mother was too busy with the other children or preoccupied. My mother was no help, so, I turned all the feelings inward to being my fault (remembering the amnesia).
To me that said when I had no one to turn to or help me, I turned on myself. That was a powerful revelation to me--
Is that any help?
antigua
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