Posted by madeline on May 12, 2006, at 7:03:31
In reply to Re: conflicted feelings about csa ***trigger*** » Emily Elizabeth, posted by bent on May 12, 2006, at 6:45:43
*****One day I am confident I can move forward and the next I feel stuck for life******
Amen! That is EXACTLY how I feel too! It is soooooo hard to come to terms with CSA, I mean really come to terms with it. It feels like such a fight sometimes. But I know that I am fighting hopelessness and it something I am prepared to do.
I have had a hard time remembering exactly what happened to me, as I have learned that large blocks of my childhood are just lost to me. I get fragments here and there, but never the comprehensive picture.
My body remembers, my soul remembers, but my mind (god bless it) is keeping the worst of it from me. But what I do remember is very awful.
Daisy is right, however, you may feel shaky, vulnerable and perhaps even worse after you have shared your story with your T. So keep her close and tell her that you need her to be close.
Keep us close too. We are here. That's the great thing about the internet, someone is always here.
You can share this and be loved.
Maddie
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