Posted by Larry Hoover on May 16, 2006, at 9:17:35
In reply to Re: conflicted feelings about csa ***trigger*** » happyflower, posted by bent on May 16, 2006, at 7:06:13
> Thanks HF. I appreciate everyones support so much. I dont think I have any real physical problems because of my experiences. Things related to anxiety and depression for sure, but not any real physical problems. For me it just feels like a physical pain sometimes. Something inside of me that is just hurting and I need to get it out. It makes me feel sick sometimes but mostly recently since it has been a much bigger issue that it ever has before.
If I may draw you into my mind for a moment....
The pain you describe. It can be understood, if you accept ideas from other cultures. I am fascinated to read of differing philosophies of living. Taking the bits that I like.
Ghandi, who was inspired to create the philosophy of civil disobedience, among others....Ghandi developed his own "religion", which was based on 91? others. A hybrid. Sometimes an idea from another way of thinking makes such sense..... Cherry picking.
When I read about Eastern philosophies, about the chakras, for example. I can't quite imagine a spiritual philosophy more different than e.g. Roman Catholicism. The latter makes procreation of far greater importance than the experience of the act itself.
The chakras, in particular the second one.... The second chakra involves a focal point on the body, between the navel and the genitals, which is the seat of sexual experience and power. But it also is the seat of the drive to explore, of certain types of creativity. And when that is blocked, and you grow stagnant, undefined pain can arise. Undefined, in physical terms, but not undefined in terms of the body's energy centers.
It fascinates me, that humans can create such divergent world views. It would never have occurred to me to postulate the existence of chakras. But, humans did. And such a world view is entirely consistent with what my intuition (also linked to a chakra, not surprisingly, in the gut) tells me you are struggling to describe. It shows me, this way you describe yourself, it shows me that you are potentially on the verge of healing this pain. Your potential is high.
Geez, I hope that meant something, to you.
Lar
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