Posted by Jen Star on July 22, 2005, at 19:41:51
In reply to Power of Honesty --- (Full On Trigger) Long, posted by daisym on July 22, 2005, at 2:32:30
hi Daisy,
I'm so glad you're still here! I'm so glad your T was kind to you, and so glad that he pointed out that he AND your kids would miss you.Please stay strong! You can do it. Life is worth living, for your kids and for yourself.
Your kids would miss you terribly. All their lives, I imagine, they'd wonder if it was their fault. I understand that young children blame themselves for everything from divorce to getting beaten perpetually to cancer in a family member. Kids really take everything quite personally and think everthing bad is their fault. If a parent is not terminally ill with a painful and wasting disease, I don't think any child would understand why they did it, or could ever stop blaming themselves.
That being said (and I'm sure you've heard all that before, over and over) -- I'm so glad that you kept your promise to your T and stayed alive and worked with him.
I think it could mean that there is a desire to live and be happy deep within you, a spark of strength and belief and power. I hope you continue to fan that spark of happiness until it bursts into flame and you can be happy and don't need to think about ending things again.
take care of yourself.
I'm thinking of you and hoping that all is well with you and your family.JenStar
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