Posted by pinkeye on May 23, 2005, at 12:53:08
In reply to Re: Wondering if my Ex T understood me » pinkeye, posted by Tamar on May 23, 2005, at 4:21:01
Thanks Tamar for the validation. When we become depressed, we do horrible things which we are not even fully aware of.
I guess then it was ok.
As to my email - I hope he responds.. But I don't want to hope. I started crying after that.. I was so ashamed of myself for writing again when he clearly is not encouraging it. I started having nightmares yesterday again imagining all possible worst scenarios.. what if he snubs me or completely ignores me.
I am trying to just leave it and not focus on it too much. But I was hurting very much and couldn't go on at all.. that is why I ended up writing. But now I feel more bad that I wrote.
This thing never ends.
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