Posted by Poet on October 15, 2004, at 18:35:14
In reply to Quit therapy, for good,Cant take it anymore (long), posted by shrinking violet on October 14, 2004, at 19:04:53
(((((((((((Shrinking Violet)))))))))))
I so understand your pain. I wish you didn't feel it. I wish there was a way to get those of us who have trouble opening up to be able to do so without giving up.
You are not horrible. You just can't talk about difficult things. It sounds like in your last session that it was your therapist who was throwing those lightning bolts directly at you.
You, no doubt, frustrate her. I know I frustated the hell out of my therapist. Mine doesn't arm wrestle for information, she fishes, complete with gesture of rod and reel.
I am sorry that we frustrate them, but they should know that everyone does not act the same. The shy kid in school, is the shy adult in therapy. The kid who didn't learn how to express emotions other than anger, is the same in therapy.
You talk as much as you can and you trust as much as you can. Nobody can force you to tear down those walls of protection until you are ready. I would have been upset if my therapist had confronted me like yours did. You have a right to be upset and, to me, it's fully understandable why you feel that you have quit for good.
I called my T, today, and told her that I am thinking of coming back. You and others really helped me get through a really bad time last week. I hope that I can help you, even if it's only to read with a sympathetic eye.
Try to take care of yourself. I'll try to check in more often this weekend. You can email me, too.
Poet
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