Posted by Racer on July 3, 2003, at 16:32:43
No matter the medication, no matter how hard I try to hold it together, it just keeps getting worse and worse and worse. I'm in pain, physically and emotionally. I just have no resources left, and no way to restore those I may once have had. I just don't want to go on with this anymore when it doesn't get any better.
I've looked for help. There just isn't any. My husband had me taken to the EPS the other day, where they let me go home again. When they started their Pollyanna routine, about how there are resources available, I told them there weren't -- told them what I'd tried, and they admitted I was right. There just aren't any resources out there right now, there wasn't anything they could do to help me, beyond locking me into a hospital ward to make sure I was protected from dangerous things like shoelaces.
Now I want to know, from others who might understand. This is an unbearable existence for me. There are no resources available to me for treatment. There is no social support available to me. The physical pain and emotional anguish are unbearable. At what point is suicide euthanesia, when is it the most humane solution? I'm not willing to continue like this any more. I hope for a quick answer, because I have the tools ready, only waiting a few hours now.
Thank you for your answer.
poster:Racer
thread:239030
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